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For CJ – May 15, 2019

Yesterday, in dire emotion
I was crying out an ocean
Lost in secrets dark and deep
Hidden sorrows that I keep
Death and sin

The rushing waters come upon me
Threatening to overcome me
Crashing waves of desolation
Shame and guilt and deep depression
Locked within

But as the surging tides engulfed me
I heard a voice that reached out for me
Loud and soundless, big and boundless
Reaching through eternal vastness
“LET ME IN”

Before I fell, His goodness found me
No charge withheld, forgave completely
Relentless, fierce, His cross above me
And in my desperation, loved me
Grace revealed

Now today, in my devotion
I worship free, with full abandon
Pouring out my hidden passion
To the One, my true salvation
Saviour King!


This had been languishing in draft limbo for the longest time. I was very particular about the beat and rhyme pattern that I had started with those first four lines, but as usual found it hard to finish. I cannot think of a melody that would suit this honestly, and if anyone out there can think if any I am open to suggestions.

But the other day, when I learned about CJ’s mom, I was moved to finish the last few lines. No one can know the mind of God. But we are privileged to know His heart. Love you CJ.